2008
That I would be loved even when I numb myselfThat I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy
That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
Whether with or without you
and i hope, my parents find their happiness somewhere, that i can find what im looking for, that those around me be happy, that we love and be loved in return.
rahhhh
8:24 PM
Sunday, December 30, 2007
more drinks please.
gay clubs are fun. and safe. and free. and entertaining.
yay!
but the music sucked.
but supper was good.
:)
and i aint v homophobic so i guess all was good.
o ya, and in the gay world, ben gu niang shi mei de ok.
rahhhh
11:59 PM
Friday, December 21, 2007
u never do get it.
eva since the anniversary,the brunei boyfriend has forgotten completely bout the monthly tenths.
pig.
grumbles.
and he thinks diamonds are too expensive.
double grumbles.
so after watching tht seven pm korean soul switching show on channel u.
i came to the conclusion tht guys love their mistresses more.
coz.... they stand a chance of losing their younger prettier girlfriends whereas wives are somewad bound by marriage contracts. plus u havta fight to get ur hands on those pretty things.
totally irritating.
triple grumbles.
o wells. sometimes i wonder if im actually in a relationship, how do u totally know if it is anyways.
and then u take a deep breath and realise ure still living, and theres no other possible way for it to be.
that choices have to be made all the time.
that all i try is to get thru.
that maybe just maybe i will get filled up by something someday.
that lucky stars should be counted or at least glimpsed at.
that if i could i would.
that maybe i shldnt have left.
that the wall i have now should not have been there.
that i have to move on.
maybe if all the comparing stopped. if i could learn, to love, unconditionally. it would be better in life. and please let me figure out what on earth im looking for.
but life is disgusting.
and the day i find it wonderful would be the day i got filled up.
so just grit ur teeth n wait.
rahhhh
9:16 PM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
that BEANy bean bean.
could the heavens bestow 300 bucks to ME,so that i can go get THAT BEAN necklace from tiffany n co.
PRETTY PRETTY PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...............................
I PROMISE I HAVE BEEN A REAL GOOD GIRL THIS YR.
OR AT LEAST TRIED TO, THOUGHT ABOUT IT, MAY HAVE BEEN SO.
reasons for desiring a necklace with a BEAN
- BEANs are the cutest creation on earth
- jack and the BEANstalk, see, BEANs are so significant, can u imagine Jack and the jackfruit tree, no right
- BEANs like me as much as i like them, if they could they would have beryl n co written on them, but too bad, rich tiffany used her bratty ways to force them to put her name on it
- BEANs are like total necessities in life, can u imagine life without green BEANS red BEANS white barley BEANS
- lotsa other food try to look like BEANs like white rice brown rice unhusked rice cooked rice and non cooked rice
- BEANs have many use and are constantly exploited coz they have such a good reputation, eg: jolliBEAN, BEANey babies
- BEANs are humourous funny and absolutely entertaining, like mr BEAN
- BEANs are distinctively distinguished from each other, thus having a sense of identity, coool right, u see tiff and co has LARGE BEAN and MINI BEAN, they arent just beans u know, they are INDIVIDUATED, kickass personality i say
so here are my EIGHT ABSOLUTE REASONS for why i HAVTA HAVE THE LARGE BEAN NECKLACE.
sponsers, contributors to the make-beryl-happy-fund are gladly welcomed, in return u will get a warranty of beryl-will-try-not-to-irritate-u-too-much-warranty, FOR A YEAR OK.
*ps: thats if u make a contribution of more than ten dollars, dun play play and give me one cent hor, i will kick ur sorry ass to timbaktu and give u a u-are-so-dead-warranty lasting for TWO YEARS. i have a good memory for warranties.
rahhhh
9:51 PM
Sunday, December 02, 2007
grape and strawberry nerded-nerds memries.
although u give lousy presents,
There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here?
And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll Sit beneath the mango tree now
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together.
